FALL by J. Holiday

It wasn't supposed to go this way...
Every day I get up, shes on my mind
I can't get enough & I don't know why
But its more than a crush
I can't believe its getting deeper
All the time I wanna see her
But it wasn't suppose to go this way
She was suppose to be another game to play
And I can't figure it out
I don't know how she did it
But she made me fall, fall, fall
How do you find yourself
Inside of love (Inside of love)
With a girl that you met
Inside the club (Inside the club)
Never could that be me-Yeah
That was what I used to say
Until it happened just the same to me
I never thought it could happen to me
But these days I'm finding myself on the ground
And I just don't know how I got here
All I know is that I'm down & out
But it wasn't suppose to go this way (Go this way)
She was suppose to be another game to play (Another game to play)
And I can't figure it out
I don't know how she did it
But she made me fall, fall, fall
Have you ever met someone
That you thought was for the moment
Then they came & stole your heart
Before you knew that it was stolen
Took you by surprise
Cuz you never saw it coming
And now I can't deny
That baby girl you got me fallin
But it wasn't suppose to go this way (Go this way)
She was suppose to be another game to play (Game to play)
And I cant figure it out
I don't know how she did it
But she made me fall, fall, fall
But it wasn't suppose to go this way (Go this way)
She was suppose to be another game to play (Game to play)
And I cant figure it out
I don't know how she did it
But she made me fall, fall, fall
How did I find myself inside of love (love)?

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I completely messed up a good thing...because I had to, knowing I don't deserve it. I'm not crazy nor schizo. But I realized It won't work. Issues and the past has a way of creeping up and affecting how I see & think.

Entering the last month of 2013...

2013 was just filled with ups and downs...more like "downs" after a few disappointing runs in stuff that interested me. I have finally gave up on one that I seriously thought I can excel in.

"THE NIGHTLIFE"

I was never a nightlife type of person...and along with that, will never be use to the temptations that go along with it. I gave it a shot again and again but alas, I am just not cut out for it. So there I have decided this coming 2014 I will commit myself to where I know and sincerely believe that I can be truly successful, which is Design...I will commit myself to the Idea and to the people that have given me their trust and build from ground up a project I have been working on for almost a year. My investment in this is big and probably If I fail I will consider to take the offer withstanding overseas.

In that context I have to give up a lot...I will sacrifice my time and build up this brand I am trusted with and also create a brand and produce other brands as well with this small team of trusted & experienced people.

With this I start my life in the blogging scene...from rants and raves well maybe just stuff that I want to put out of my chest.